Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts

Friday, August 30, 2013

Photo-Heart Connection: August 2013

The idea: At the end of each month, review the images you worked with in 
that month for the one that gives you the strongest connection to your heart 
and soul. Write about that connection to the image in a blog post... 
then link into the monthly link up.



So about a mile away from the house I ask my 16yo if he has all his paperwork
for his driving test. "What paperwork?" he asks. He looks it up on his phone.
Then we head back home for the stuff he forgot.

Then about half way to the DMV, as he's filling out the application, he
discovers that he needs his social security number. We head back home again.
He was 30 minutes late for his appointment. That, apparently, is the limit
that's granted. So he had to re-schedule, but got a guy behind the counter
who was nice enough to "change" his appointment instead of classifying him
as a no-show, so he doesn't have to pay the fee twice.

On the way home my son voiced his suspicion that his forgetfulness was not
completely surprising to him; he's been feeling very ambivalent about getting
his license and driving to his own activities without one of his parents sitting
next to him.

I am so proud of my son for being so self-aware at 16. It has been such an
honor to be sharing his path and watching him blossom into a fine man.
There continues to be bumps along the way, but to me that is a sign that he
is trying many things to figure out who he is.

I love this photograph because it is a capture of him at this exact moment in
time; a boy in a man's body; his sideburns which mean so much to him; his
comfort in his own body as he rests after a big leap into the river; his
enjoyment of the sun and this moment in his joyful life.

Technically I like the composition of this image, and the depth of field. The
sun is just so perfect too, without harsh shadows on his face. I love that I did
not manipulate this photo in any way, except to reduce the resolution before
posting online. I feel so grateful that I am finally getting a handle on my DSLR.

This month I actually have a second image that pulled on my heart strings;
I couldn't choose just one:



This is ADD boy, as I think of him. He was such an incredible challenge for me,
from the moment I birthed him in the back seat of his dad's car 13 years ago;
and throughout the 6 grades through which I homeschooled him; and
throughout the continuing process of getting his needs met appropriately now
that he is in school.

I am in a place right now where this boy brings me such joy. I can't remember
the last time I wanted to strangle him (metaphorically speaking). Now that
his education is in someone else's hands, and now that he is getting old enough
to care about being more organized, and now that he is relating to family
more appropriately, he is nothing but funny.

Of course this has a lot to do with where I am in my own life. Now that his
education is in someone else's hands, and now that I don't have him with me
so constantly, I find myself able to enjoy him way more. When I looked out
the car window on a recent long drive, I found myself loving the way he was
using up his excess energy by making funny faces in the side view mirror.
And appreciating how he has always responded to the feeling of the wind
pressing against him. And reflecting on how freaking funny this kid is.

I love the photograph itself because it comes from my point-and-shoot which
lives in my handbag. The DSLR is with me when I'm "going somewhere" but
the point-and-shoot I have at all times; for moments that happen in the blink
of an eye, just like this. I love the gas station on the upper left and the defogging
squiggles on the right. I love that it feels like a capture. And I love the reminder
that for me taking pictures is first and foremost about documenting my life,
and making art is just what sometimes happens along the way.

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Sunday, July 07, 2013

Photo-Heart Connection: June 2013

The idea: At the end of each month, review the images you worked with in that month for the one that gives you the strongest connection to your heart and soul. Write about that connection to the image in a blog post... then link into the monthly link up.



I adore flowers. Their beauty, and honestly even more importantly, their fragrance. And every year I tell myself I'm going to get up to Elizabeth Park in Hartford, CT to enjoy their rose garden, the week before their celebrated "Rose Weekend" of course, since I can't take crowds.

Well this year I did it. I went by myself after my kids were in school. I got there around 10am so I'd have nice light, and as I walked around sticking my nose and camera in to all that deliciousness I noticed that the light had gotten really harsh; it was already after noon. I had stayed for over three hours and took over 700 photos.

I am going through a period of huge transition in my life right now. After homeschooling my two boys for nine years they are both in school, and I am finding myself with a lot of time on my hands. And yet I find myself feeling guilty for taking time to nourish my soul with a few hours of something I love to do, that my other family members would only bitch through if I had dragged them along.

I think I love this photo the most out of the 711 that I took because it is one single rose reaching up above the others. Reaching for the sun even as it beats mercilessly down upon it. It reflects how I am trying to deal with the mixed emotions I have about all the changes going on in my life. I am joyful that my kids are in school now, and that I have a few moments to catch my breath to rise above the mundane. But I am still a white rose in the midst of white roses and miss my kids terribly. The trick, I think, will be to learn to allow myself these moments of alone time without feeling guilty.

Photographically I like this image because it really is quite lovely despite that mid-day blaring sun that professionals are always saying to avoid for the best photos. I've had my digital SLR for almost a year now, and I am still adjusting to it. My last SLR was not digital and was completely manual, and I am constantly challenged to take advantage of the new auto functions (focus, for example) while manipulating them to get the results that I want. Having hours to take photos of still images enabled me to practice.

What a lovely day that was.

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Saturday, June 30, 2012

“Recognizing My Eye”

This “assignment” has been a real challenge for me. It's just not flowing
the way it usually does. For me, taking photos is not a cerebral pastime,
and to try to label it that way is not coming easily. So I'm going to try to
do it literally.

I looked for themes. And really, every image I photograph pulls me in
by its beauty. And the beauty is always born out of one of the reasons
that I photograph. So that's my theme: “Beauty everywhere.” Whether
it's found or made.

Some of the things suggested I consider as I reviewed my inspiration file:

Subject.
I recently read a quote by Virginia Woolfe that really resonated with me:
Make visible
what without you
might perhaps
never have been seen.
I like to photograph things that others might miss. For example, a basket
of flowers completely blocking a doorway...



The reflection of a hubcap on a parking lot...



or a bridge over the water...



I also like to photograph people...




Composition.
It's always got to look decent in the frame. And I like to create unusual
compositions...



I like to ignore the rule of thirds because it creates tension...



and I love messy compositions that make the viewer work to see...




Lighting.
I prefer to utilize whatever light I'm shooting in to help create the mood
of where I am, rather than using artificial lighting (I rarely, if ever, use
a flash). This can be challenging since my activities often place me in the
glaring sun smack in the middle of the day. But I like the challenge of
making it work..



and sometimes I do get lucky to be in the right place at the right time...



Elements of Design.
I never gave this one much thought. Again, it's cerebral to beyond
where I'm willing to go right now. But it does seem that the elements
do play a large part in my photographs. Why else would I photograph
a grape sitting in a bottle cap...



a duct taped covered basketball lying around my back yard...



or my nephew's dirt covered nose...



So there you have it. For now, my photographic eye:
  • Subjects: beauty everywhere, capturing what others might not see, people
  • Composition: seeing things in new ways
  • Natural light
  • Photographs as design
Honestly, this was a really painful exercise for me, but I'm happy with the end result!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

“Familiar Subject Photo Shoot”

I went to a Renaissance Faire today. They are one of my favorite things to
photograph. I took 632 photos. Yup. I have to take that many to get a
dozen that I'm actually happy with. Family and friends tell me that I'm a
“great” photographer, but really, it's all about odds. And I do admit, I have
some decent composition skills.

The thing I love about shooting at Renaissance Faires is that the visuals are so
inviting; I never get bored or tired of shooting, and the whole day flies by.

There are a bunch of things that frustrate me though, all having to do with my
“equipment” (or lack thereof). Some of these things include sun I can't control,
but could deal with more easily if I was able to use a lens hood, shutter lag,
which is a huge issue for me, and finally, aperture setting for good depth of field.

I've learned to get around some of these things, like using my hand over my
lens to block the sun, setting up burst shooting and letting it rip so my lag
doesn't miss anything, and blurring out my backgrounds in Photoshop when
I get my photos home. But it does get most frustrating as I look through them all
and only find that dozen or so out of the 600. Still, I try to look at it as a challenge,
and really it hasn't deterred me from still going to these things and snapping away.
I do feel proud of the few photos I do get and love, knowing that I had to
work so hard for them.

Here are a few of my favorites from today:





Sunday, June 17, 2012

“Why I Photograph”

1. To nurture my need to be creative.



2. To preserve memories.



3. To capture the love I feel for my children.



4. To record the beauty that uplifts me.



5. To help me remember to look for the beauty in the “ugly”.



6. And to keep looking for beauty in the mundane.